Why so fearless?

What if I told you there was someone with no fear. Nothing at all. You could wave a gun in their face and they would not flinch. You could put knife in, right on their eyelid and they would not even blink. What made them so absolutely bulletproof, well not bullet proof but bullet resilient. And if they are this way how can I be that way too? Let me stop you there for a second. There is no other person that is without fear you can learn from. There is only one person in the world without fear, and it is you. Well each and every one of us have a level of ourselves in which we stop fearing. We simply just have to reach that level.

I used to think that to reach this level all I had to do was to face my fears head on and continuously be doing difficult things every single day. Whether it is a cold shower right in the morning, or eating enough protein to puke it all out, or even reading books you find terribly boring like they mean the world to you. This cycle of almost a sort of self-military type training is what would eventually make us that fearless being right? I mean it is at least worth a try is it not? Yet throughout this process of losing all of your fears, another fear begins to rise the one of losing everything else.

What is the cost of becoming this powerful fearless human being? Is it that we possibly loose the entirety of humanity or maybe just be let with a little bit of it. Yet this fearless being is part of our humanity as well otherwise we would never be able to transform into it at all. What if we could change and transform into this form only when we wanted it to. And transform back to an entirely relaxed state whenever we wanted. That seems almost impossible though, the same way it is difficult to bring a soldier back from the war and tell them they cannot fire at anyone they find threatening anymore despite it being the only thing they were taught for a large portion of their life.

So why even try to become this fearless being if we fear becoming it? Why does it hold any importance at all? Or is it meant to remain only an ideal inspiration for us to try and look up to but never actually become? Would it matter more if I were able to simply try harder everyday with the fear of failure except for try only half as hard completely fearless of failure? None of them are perfect but in one I end moving a bit further, yet in the other I am able to actually understand where I stand. I could be rambling without any stoppage for long hours of me trying to be fearless yet being fearful of the same but I’m scared that eventually you’ll stop reading.