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Why do we complicate our life so much? Do we even control how much it complicates? Or does life just become what it is because of the times that we live in. often I would find that others and I almost think about all the same things at the end of the day because we all want to end up in a similar position. One where we do not have to worry about the things we worry about now. Whether it is in terms of having more time for us, having to work for less time, having more money or even just having something nice to eat. Worrying about each of these things together is a complication, isn’t it?

Consistently planning and trying to understand what the future will be and what we must do to change it, is what we begin to worry about today. Now I do not know if it is the case for everyone, but I have thought to the point where I look to analyse how every action, I take in the present will eventually lead to a future that I am working towards. Whether this means what I eat when I sleep or even what I think. As that is the basis for all of it, once I begin to think what I believe is the correct way, possibly everything else will fall right into place. In all of this thought process and decision-making, I realise that I do not even stay within the realm of this world.

Becoming so removed from reality that I am just watching myself go by with everything I do without actually being involved with it myself. Not because I am not paying attention or because I am not interested, I am simply in a whole different world. At times I would set all my clocks manually to at least three to four minutes ahead to bring my thoughts back to me. Yet it does not work, because no matter how much time I lose or make for myself it will always continue moving without it checking with me. So often I should stay in a different realm, where all of my thoughts feel like people I can talk to, and all of my ideas have no boundaries to them. All of this seems interesting until my real thought process requires my presence.

How do I return to reality after being so far away from it? Am I ever even paying any form of attention to it at all? some of myself are. Yet this complication is what makes everything else so simple. A complication to get rid of another complication. A problem is a solution to a problem. If it is difficult to worry and think about this world, why must I stay there at all? A the end of the day I have got to feel some way, so why feel like the victim of one world, when I can feel like the king of another?