Polluted Thoughts

It seems to me that my senses are not working as well as they used to. It seems like something is clouding my vision and intercepting my smell. I woke up this morning thinking I would take a deep breath, but I looked out of the window and felt afraid to breathe in. So I ditched my running shoes and closed every window and door around me. Not only did I fear what I saw outside, but I was unsure of what I was looking at entirely. It appears that all those science fiction movies where the world has come to ruins due to our own exploitations are a reality. Yet it was not 2049; it was only 2023. It’s just the winter, though. As soon as this winter passes, the science fiction experience goes away as well.

Yet the problem is that the heat just hides the smoke elsewhere. Just like our minds hide the problems somewhere for a bit until they surface and cloud everything in front of us. Sometimes I think that these parallels that I make are quite far-fetched, yet other times it is only because I begin to think narrowly. Why don’t I take the risk of going out in that smoke? Yeah, maybe I cannot always see everything, but what’s the worst that could happen? Maybe I am used to breathing like this after all of this time. It seems like a problem that I have normalized.

I don’t really like to or want to wear some kind of mask because I understand how little it actually helps. So I step outside, thinking I will get lost, thinking I will face some kind of problem, but I don’t. I just keep going forward with it, and no problems arise around me at all. That is when I realized the actual difference this has from when our minds are clouded. When our mind is clouded, it becomes stationary, but the world does not stop at all when something gets in the way. So should we try to be like the world that never stops moving? Why not? We all have a few polluted thoughts anyway.