When?

How long does it take someone to meet god? At times I feel like I meet them every single day and other times it feels like, I am what is farthest from them. Mostly when I think that I must need them now is the time they are farthest from me. Yet the times when I feel like I don’t need a god at all and that I might be himself, they show themselves to me in all these forms. So, is god simply there for me to believe in something outside of my capabilities and not to ever stay by me actually in times of difficulty?

That seems almost disappointing because then what is the purpose of god, just to see others as human or is there more to the concept than that? As every time something good happens I seem to thank god without any intention or even thinking about it. Yet as soon as something bad happens and I would expect god to drop from above and come to my aid, it isn’t the gods that help but simply just other humans around me. I cannot explain if I should think of them as messengers of god or gods themselves. Come to think of it, why can I not think of these as gods?

There are no parameters set as to what I can believe in and what I cannot, does god have to be some out-of-the-ordinary creature that is nothing near what we see every day? I don’t think so. The same way that the belief in myself as god due to the decent presence of control I have over my own life and how it can eventually turn out is the same way that others around me can be a god as they are what help me create that better life, along with their provisions being the sole reason of the progress that I can achieve each time I move forward.

If that is true then I meet god almost every single day, some days in the mirror, some days at home, some days in the mountains and some days elsewhere. Yet it would be unjust to say that any of these people I have met are less for me than god. As god cannot be described with a textbook definition and for me, god can simply be anyone that helps me and I would leave everything to go and help.