Time - Consuming

It appears to me that time has been passing much faster than I thought it would. What appeared to be a month away is now only a week away. Possibly, I am wasting too much time, and that is why I may be feeling like this. Yet in the moment, it appears like the clock has refused to tick forward and that I am trapped in the day that I am in. Everything seems to be a better thing to do tomorrow, but tomorrow will always be the next day and never become today. How did this happen? Just a minute ago, today seemed like the world, yet now it seems a little boring.

Sometimes my brain feels as if I am sitting on the hour hand of the clock, which is supposed to be a smooth bus ride that moves at the same speed constantly but ends up feeling more like a roller coaster that speeds and slows without me knowing. Everything else, even things outside my control, actually seems to have some effect on the things that I do. Yet time seems to have a mind of its own. That affects me more than I am able to affect it. Possibly, this is what something like a god is supposed to feel like—someone who controls so much of your life without your discretion. I don’t think I would classify the concept of time as a god, but possibly it is the one thing that we see every day closest to it.

Even though today may not seem like the right time, When the right time needs to happen, time gives it to you. Time usually only presents itself as support when we really do need it. Yet when we don’t and ask for it anyway, time appears to ignore you entirely. So maybe I can take it as a good sign that time is ignoring me right now. It means that the time I have right now is enough to keep me in the right space. Or maybe I should wait for the time to become too short, such that I have to be favored, but that sounds quite dull, doesn’t it?

Would it not be more fun to chase time rather than wait for it to wake you up? My time seems to be up now, so I should wake up from this tangent that my brain took me to. I would not want to be woken up by the test of time; it seems quite time-consuming.